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Parral by Charles Haddox

My grandfather, Don Arcadio, has been telling me about growing up in an orphanage in Parral,

Chihuahua after the revolution. We’ve been sitting and talking for what seems like hours. He’s

been describing the cold, dark hallways, the elderly nuns in white aprons, the tiny bowls of beans

for lunch, the kid with big ears and a square head who would make him stroke his hand for hours

(they called it cosquis—tickling), and the bullies who would lock him up in a cupboard. His tone

changes when he talks about the streets outside the orphanage: the tree-lined boulevards of

Parral, the cool, spacious cathedral, the grand two-story villas.

I’m wheeling him out the parking lot door of the dialysis center, and I look back at the sole

remaining client. He’s a dentist that I once saw as a kid. And now he’s sprawled out on one of

the “lounge chairs,” as the staff calls them, hooked up to a machine, his body wrecked, watching

Fox News with total absorption. Odd to think that his hands were once in my mouth.

Outside, the old neighborhood of red brick bungalows built in the twenties seems mellow

under a bright orange sunset; the yards full of blue lilies, “margaritas,” bright calendulas, and

spineless prickly pear clumps. Growing up in shiny public housing built in the 1980s, I used to

think that these houses were prehistoric. They recently leveled a couple of blocks of ’em to build

the dialysis center.

I slide my grandfather into the front seat of the car with the help of a polished wooden board

and cram his folded-up wheelchair into the trunk. It’s a cold spring evening. The old man is already complaining.

A thin young woman with dyed blond hair taps on my window. She’s crying and has a red

knot over her left eye. I roll down the window. She asks me for a ride.

“Where to?”

“My parents’ house. It’s on Mongolia Street.”

I know that she means Magnolia Street, which is fortunately not far from my grandfather’s


“I had a fight with my boyfrien’ and I can’t get home. I don’t have any money.”

“Get in,” I say, a little flattered that she’s asked me for help. If I were a young woman, I

would never ask a couple seedy characters like me and my abuelo for a ride.

“Thanks a lot,” she says.

The old man speaks enough English to get what’s going on and begins to object loudly about

the detour we’re making. He insists that he needs to eat ASAP, but I know he’s really worried

about missing a stupid show on Telemundo about paranormal activity in Mexico. It’s the show

that he cares about, not his meal, even though he’ll be fed during the program, for sure—stuff

that my grandmother serves him which he shouldn’t be eating anyway—cheese and white bread

and Mexican sausage and chocolate ice cream, all topped off with a Coke or orange Fanta. He

gets the grandkids to bring him seconds on the Coke by acting like he’s having a seizure—he

calls it a “Coke fit”—that can only be cured by a dose of what my brother Al calls “senior citizen


The young woman sits in the back seat; quiet, stiff, ill at ease, while my grandfather

grumbles. She doesn’t stop sobbing until the old man brings up the orphanage. It’s a true El Paso

moment, because it turns out her mom’s from Parral. Even though there are almost a million people in El Paso, everybody’s got a “cousin” who knows you, who went to school with you—or

a relative from the place your parents or grandparents are from. The young woman, whose name

I don’t even know, is swapping stories with the old man, the two of them filled with mindless

glee. That’s what always happens when people discuss Mexico. I’ve never been to Parral, so I

can’t participate in the fun. I think of interrupting them just to ask her what went down with her

boyfriend, but common sense prevails. You know what they say: the less you know, the less

responsible you are for whatever goes on.

My grandfather’s words are flowery, elegiac. The streets of Parral. Oh, the streets of Parral.

When I get to her parents’ house on Magnolia, the woman tries to give me a gold class ring

that she’s wearing.

“No, it’s okay,” I tell her, and there’s a little back and forth until she drops the offer.

“You might think about calling the cops next time,” I add.


Voy a volver allí, a Parral.” “I’m going back there, to Parral,” my grandfather tells her.

I give the young woman an embarrassed smile, and she says to me softly, “My mother’s

always sayin’ the same thing.” As she slips the ring back on her finger, she adds, “Makes sense,

huh? Think everybody’s just trying—you know—trying to get back home.”

Originally published by Cat on a Leash Review 2018

Charles Haddox (he/him) lives in El Paso, Texas, on the U.S.-Mexico border, and has family roots in both countries. His work has appeared in a number of journals including Chicago Quarterly Review, The Normal School, Folio, and Stonecoast Review.


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